I need to give myself permission to write. More specifically, I need to give myself permission to write badly.
I think I would be happier if I wrote more. And I think I would become a better writer if I allowed myself to write badly from time to time.
Few things have made me as happy as writing. It doesn’t happen every time I write. Just sometimes, when I’m really into it.
But I’m afraid of failing. And because of that, I often will refuse to try.
If you have ever been held back by fear, I think you know the feeling. You want something so hard that your heart aches. Then over time you grow numb. Then over more time you forget.
But the pain of wanting never really goes away. It still cries out for what it wants. It never stopped. You just stopped listening to it.
If failure is the only thing preventing me from experiencing the delirious, creative joy of writing, then I give myself permission to fail.
When I learn how to fail, then I can learn to have fun. Then I can learn to experiment and create.
Then I can write.
